a token
i received a little gift from a friend of mine 4 years ago. i treasure it very much although its been a little worn out already and i haven't been taking the best of care for it but nevertheless, i treasure it perhaps--just not with all my heart.
so speaking of the heart. this thing has a lot to do with my past and quite possibly my future but never my present. go figure.
and i happen to have almost lost it. twice. almost--not quite.
i was doing stuff when i saw it on a table, away from my body and awaaaaaay from my wrist. in other words, it was not where it was supposed to be. in other words, i lost it. someone found it. then left it there. sigh of relief. but i did not quite learn my lesson.
and then again, it wasn't with me for awhile when it should have been but when i discovered it was gone, it did not cause me much alarm nor concern (considering that im supposed to treasure it dearly). i tried looking for it but seeing that it was quite a little thing, i gave up almost immediately. actually, i did. i was too busy. i did not have time to look for it so i left it to God to have it be found by me again if He wills it.
and then reflection. since that thing was a token of my past (which could possibly also be my future, depending on our choices and destiny and etcetera etcetera), a past i have been trying hard to let go and have, honestly, been hoping vainly to be my present and a past i wish to have to forget only to relive again and a past i also feel nothing about. NR.
a past.
that thing symbolized that past and i almost lost it. actually, i did. i lost it.
i lost my past.
so thought God was telling me to let it go.
let go and move on.
2 very important phrases everyone must learn to do.
perhaps losing it meant i really had to let go.
finally. after all these years.
sigh of relief.
pain in the chest.
gasp.
moving on?
just when i was ready to do the let go and move on thing.
i found it. again.
lying on the floor.
i had the choice of not pickingit up anymore.
but i did.
now i dont know when the historic letting go of that past will ever happen.
sabaw. thank you.
btw to my cdo friends, i know you guys are busy and you dont often open/check your multiplys, i just want you to know i still miss you all. im just sort of busy and out of load. :D
see guys!................... soon?
so speaking of the heart. this thing has a lot to do with my past and quite possibly my future but never my present. go figure.
and i happen to have almost lost it. twice. almost--not quite.
i was doing stuff when i saw it on a table, away from my body and awaaaaaay from my wrist. in other words, it was not where it was supposed to be. in other words, i lost it. someone found it. then left it there. sigh of relief. but i did not quite learn my lesson.
and then again, it wasn't with me for awhile when it should have been but when i discovered it was gone, it did not cause me much alarm nor concern (considering that im supposed to treasure it dearly). i tried looking for it but seeing that it was quite a little thing, i gave up almost immediately. actually, i did. i was too busy. i did not have time to look for it so i left it to God to have it be found by me again if He wills it.
and then reflection. since that thing was a token of my past (which could possibly also be my future, depending on our choices and destiny and etcetera etcetera), a past i have been trying hard to let go and have, honestly, been hoping vainly to be my present and a past i wish to have to forget only to relive again and a past i also feel nothing about. NR.
a past.
that thing symbolized that past and i almost lost it. actually, i did. i lost it.
i lost my past.
so thought God was telling me to let it go.
let go and move on.
2 very important phrases everyone must learn to do.
perhaps losing it meant i really had to let go.
finally. after all these years.
sigh of relief.
pain in the chest.
gasp.
moving on?
just when i was ready to do the let go and move on thing.
i found it. again.
lying on the floor.
i had the choice of not pickingit up anymore.
but i did.
now i dont know when the historic letting go of that past will ever happen.
sabaw. thank you.
btw to my cdo friends, i know you guys are busy and you dont often open/check your multiplys, i just want you to know i still miss you all. im just sort of busy and out of load. :D
see guys!................... soon?
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