cynical thoughts (no.1)

kay aga.aga, na isipan kong magpost ng ganito

quoting my friend Jomi, "Chien, you are very cynical". he was saying how much ill survive his DS teacher for being so cynical.

so early this morning because i decided to ruin my life,
i am writing this post.

some situations

after so many years you finally get married and then the
next day you see ur spouse getting hit by a car or something.
-one day lang kayo kinasal ha?

you have a very sweet boyfriend or girlfriend who made
a very special gift on youre birthday or on ur anniversary,
well then if you two break-up, imagine how painful it would
be everytime you look at his/her gift

you love this friend of yours and you feel like this friend has
feelings for you too but your not too sure. then when your
friend was about voice his/her feelings. yung tipong alam mong
its coming really coming. tapos
nawala ang chance
why? cause in your barkada there is this other person either
play girl or play boy na super nawala na ang self-worth and
self-esteem kahit sinasabi naman ng ibang tao na gwapo o
maganda sila. at yung friend mong yun ang
nagcocomfort sa kanila eh yung playgirl/boy na friend mo
na inlove pala sa kanya. tapos ung friend mo mabait
as in super bait at feeling martyr kasi alam niyang
masisira ang buhay ng isang niyong friend kung di niya
sasamahan at pagbibigyan. kaya ayun. wala na.
"almost lover" tuloy drama mo.

you have a big crush on this unreachable star of a person.
tipong alam mong wala kang chance or di talaga pwede
and then all of a sudden pinapansin ka na pala ng person
so ikaw parang Ohmigash. tapos eh di niligawan ka niya
or pinagbigyan ka na niyang pormahan siya. tapos super date
date na kayo and then eh di na inlove ka na at lahat di ba?
kaso, pinagpustahan ka lang rin pala ng barkada niya.
you know, just so they can prove that he/she has charisma
or something like that.


anyway, un lang muna for now.. more to come.
i have this knack of ruining a very positive and wonderful moment
i am morbid after all.