kinakabahan ako
have you ever experienced a day when the sky was so clear, the air was so fresh, the grass was greener than it had ever been, the day when you actually hear the birds chirping? a day when everything was beautiful and calm. one beautiful day.
then all of a sudden, as the night was approaching, dark clouds engulfed the skies, darkness ate everything around you. the fresh air was replaced with gushing winds plunging directly at you, the birds fell silent and the branches of trees swayed violently, the grass was limp and crushed. then the rain started pouring. it began raining hard- true to the saying "when it rains, it pours".
just like that, a storm came and wreaked havoc and so everything beautiful was nowhere in sight.
i think im going to have a day just like that. only that "day" is actually one semester. im in the stage where everything is till very CALM. very beautiful. very nice and fresh. I have TIME in my hands--which i spend very leisurely. so far, i have things in control.
however, i feel like as the days progress, i will slowly lose control of the things around me. once august hits, i will be haunted by ALOT of things especially with academics. marketing, opman and well, then there's roots. OMG. will i still live?
i just read a post by a blockmate whose participating in the JTA program. their sem just ended and their sighsssssssss of relief have been pitiful and overwhelming. pitiful because they looked like they've been tortured, like they've been to hell and back. overwhelming because i suddenly realized, i will go through what they just did--soon. very SOON.
although i think the fact that they had a regular sem squeezed in three months was very detrimental to their workload and experience, i think that would have to be my saving grace. the fact that i have five months to spread "hell" evenly through. although i would also have to doubt that considering that i am very much one certified procratinator. so in that case, i think were even. that means i will go through what they just did. OMG. doom.
but then again, fine.
might as well enjoy the CALM and the BEAUTY of my surroundings now that it still here.
however, i feel the storm brewing. really near. its really near and its gonna be here soon.
so..
kinakabahan na ako.
then all of a sudden, as the night was approaching, dark clouds engulfed the skies, darkness ate everything around you. the fresh air was replaced with gushing winds plunging directly at you, the birds fell silent and the branches of trees swayed violently, the grass was limp and crushed. then the rain started pouring. it began raining hard- true to the saying "when it rains, it pours".
just like that, a storm came and wreaked havoc and so everything beautiful was nowhere in sight.
i think im going to have a day just like that. only that "day" is actually one semester. im in the stage where everything is till very CALM. very beautiful. very nice and fresh. I have TIME in my hands--which i spend very leisurely. so far, i have things in control.
however, i feel like as the days progress, i will slowly lose control of the things around me. once august hits, i will be haunted by ALOT of things especially with academics. marketing, opman and well, then there's roots. OMG. will i still live?
i just read a post by a blockmate whose participating in the JTA program. their sem just ended and their sighsssssssss of relief have been pitiful and overwhelming. pitiful because they looked like they've been tortured, like they've been to hell and back. overwhelming because i suddenly realized, i will go through what they just did--soon. very SOON.
although i think the fact that they had a regular sem squeezed in three months was very detrimental to their workload and experience, i think that would have to be my saving grace. the fact that i have five months to spread "hell" evenly through. although i would also have to doubt that considering that i am very much one certified procratinator. so in that case, i think were even. that means i will go through what they just did. OMG. doom.
but then again, fine.
might as well enjoy the CALM and the BEAUTY of my surroundings now that it still here.
however, i feel the storm brewing. really near. its really near and its gonna be here soon.
so..
kinakabahan na ako.
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