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i have all these questions in life. i believe we all do. the thing is at one point in my life, in my not so distant past, i forgot i had all these questions. I went on living my life as my destiny have put it. but like i said, recently, i began to ask all these questions and the feeling is overwhelming.
I wanted to be in ateneo for all these shallow reasons. all i wanted was to be here, no matter what it takes. but now, i have recently realized that indeed these reasons are shallow. too shallow i guess and the thing is i actually have lost appetite and passion for the reasons why i came here.
so what do you do when you lost the reason for holding on to something?
i came up with an answer. that is to create new ones. I created new ones but im too bewildered to have the energy to hold on to all the new reasons i came up with. I am too bewildered. disenchanted with what i saw here. with the culture, the people and everything else, the acads especially.
but im afraid that if i gave this up, i might regret it for the rest of my life. but what if this would only ruin me? i dont know how exactly but being here might be the reason for my insanity. yes, i have long been insane but this might really affect me physiologically or whatever.
oh well, hopefully not.
a long time ago, i would hold on to things with my life like its the only thing that really mattered to me. It gave me the drive to go on and achieve these things but i didnt really know what i was doing or what i was fighting for. It felt like i was in a war and i was a soldier who didnt know what he was fighting for. All i knew was to fight and get the job done but in the end the feat wouldn't really matter because i didn't really know what my cause was.
Dumbledore said that it is our choices that help shape who we are.
how do you choose?
here, where i am, there are two kinds of people. two kinds known collectively as one. there are ateneans and there are ateneans.
the other one, elite and worldly. the other, socially-concerned and very attached to their Ignatian values. but that is not to say that there are no people who has a little bit of both or is a good mixture of both.
but im an extreme kind of person. i go for the extremes. im a passive-aggressive kind of person. so i only want to choose one.
how do i choose?
but there is also a this thing that
I wanted to be in ateneo for all these shallow reasons. all i wanted was to be here, no matter what it takes. but now, i have recently realized that indeed these reasons are shallow. too shallow i guess and the thing is i actually have lost appetite and passion for the reasons why i came here.
so what do you do when you lost the reason for holding on to something?
i came up with an answer. that is to create new ones. I created new ones but im too bewildered to have the energy to hold on to all the new reasons i came up with. I am too bewildered. disenchanted with what i saw here. with the culture, the people and everything else, the acads especially.
but im afraid that if i gave this up, i might regret it for the rest of my life. but what if this would only ruin me? i dont know how exactly but being here might be the reason for my insanity. yes, i have long been insane but this might really affect me physiologically or whatever.
oh well, hopefully not.
a long time ago, i would hold on to things with my life like its the only thing that really mattered to me. It gave me the drive to go on and achieve these things but i didnt really know what i was doing or what i was fighting for. It felt like i was in a war and i was a soldier who didnt know what he was fighting for. All i knew was to fight and get the job done but in the end the feat wouldn't really matter because i didn't really know what my cause was.
Dumbledore said that it is our choices that help shape who we are.
how do you choose?
here, where i am, there are two kinds of people. two kinds known collectively as one. there are ateneans and there are ateneans.
the other one, elite and worldly. the other, socially-concerned and very attached to their Ignatian values. but that is not to say that there are no people who has a little bit of both or is a good mixture of both.
but im an extreme kind of person. i go for the extremes. im a passive-aggressive kind of person. so i only want to choose one.
how do i choose?
but there is also a this thing that
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