life is bittersweet
i have alot to thank God for.. yet, i can't help but wallow in the darkness pit of my life.
my brother has just handed to me, out of the kindness of his heart and his sincerest generosity, something that was a product of his blood, sweat and tears. and im supposed to take care of it with my life but its fucking right now and i dont know what to do about it. oh well..
i got accepted into this thing alot of JGSOM students have been clamoring about. but i wasn't happy with the result. i know i should be thankful and such but now as i think back, someone else deserves my spot. and i dont have the money for it so im definitely not going and im kinda at the bottom of the list so i might just end up in Thailand. i mean theres nothing wrong with thailand but i dont think its worth it. and i mean, my qpi was okay and i have extra curricular involvement but why was i at the bottom of the list? yeah, i am bitter. it would have been better if i hadn't seen my name there.
just when i thought i was losing my academic prowess if i ever do have it, i just found out that i did well on a long test i didn't even put my heart and soul into studying. so its not that fulfilling but its enough reassurance that i am not going dumb, a thought that has been occuring my mind these days because lately, not everything has been going the way i want it to.
a change is in my midst and im supposed to be sad about it. but then i thought of it and its going to give me a new perspective on my college life. so i guess its a good thing and im looking forward to it. exciting!
my brother has just handed to me, out of the kindness of his heart and his sincerest generosity, something that was a product of his blood, sweat and tears. and im supposed to take care of it with my life but its fucking right now and i dont know what to do about it. oh well..
i got accepted into this thing alot of JGSOM students have been clamoring about. but i wasn't happy with the result. i know i should be thankful and such but now as i think back, someone else deserves my spot. and i dont have the money for it so im definitely not going and im kinda at the bottom of the list so i might just end up in Thailand. i mean theres nothing wrong with thailand but i dont think its worth it. and i mean, my qpi was okay and i have extra curricular involvement but why was i at the bottom of the list? yeah, i am bitter. it would have been better if i hadn't seen my name there.
just when i thought i was losing my academic prowess if i ever do have it, i just found out that i did well on a long test i didn't even put my heart and soul into studying. so its not that fulfilling but its enough reassurance that i am not going dumb, a thought that has been occuring my mind these days because lately, not everything has been going the way i want it to.
a change is in my midst and im supposed to be sad about it. but then i thought of it and its going to give me a new perspective on my college life. so i guess its a good thing and im looking forward to it. exciting!
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