musings

im watching leona lewis' bleeding love UK version vid right now.
haha. she's such a slut in almost all her scenes. so kinda got confused with the real message of the song.

but it doesn't matter.
im super in limbo right now.
im totally half baked, its stupid.

there are things in life we should be thankful for and yet we neglect them.
on my part i like taking things for granted and regretting them in the end. thats just the masochistic side of me.

im sad for a thing i should be happy about right now
and im semi apprehensive and at the same time JOYFUL about an inevitable event i should be semi-depressed about. but i think its effects on the rest of my college life would be great and liberating!

im really enraged right now. i super hate someone. but is thats not to say that i dont have basis for hating this person, i mean I DO. like for realz.
i guess its projection, the way i hate myself i hate that person but what the hell. I so dont like the thought of that person right now. my ghad. FEELER! like i want to pinch and prick every bit and piece of that person because he/she's just too way ABOVE his/herself. that bitch.
(*mind you, alot of college guys here in ateneo are such bitches, bitchier than the girls)