the big difference

these past days make me feel enlightened and alot more confused. once again, it is chaos. once again, i am experiencing just what it is like to be me--chaos.

i find loneliness very aweful.
its sad to be lonely. its enough to be sad but lonely is just sad. i know i don't make sense and i usually don't. but anyway, being sad is something but being lonely which is sad is raising the entire level of emotional distress to a whole new and higher level. imagine being alone and sad? such a lugubrious state.

but while loneliness is sad, emptiness is tragic.
not being able to feel a sense of direction and purpose in life is tragic. it leads you to doubt yourself. that would have to be the saddest feeling in the world. being empty makes you lonely. eventually, that would make you really sad. now how about that?