does your silence mean yes?

my eyes are complaining.
it wants to shut itself down
my eyelids feel like they weigh a ton.
the weather is gloomy.
the sky is gray.
and my eye circles are daarrk.


i didnt sleep but i guess all the decisions i made yesterday were right. in a way.
we all face trade-offs. i was thisclose to punishing myself. but alls well that ends well i guess.

the general feeling i get from today is sad.
heavy.

other than the fact that a tragic thing happened this week, there is something even more lugubrious around me.

its weak.
its dark.
its quiet.
rather.. deafening silence.

i hear all these noise but i am enveloped in this kind of silence.

defeaning almost to the point that it feels like its my ears are going to bleed.

silence.


still. deafening. painful.

silence.


silence.


is this it?

is this all well ever be?

silence.


so i guess your silence mean yes.