in limbo
i think im getting even more insane.
over the weekend, i had a thousand insights rushing through the neurons of my brain, by which only 10 percent of it is useful.talk about information overload.
i think and i dont like it. thinking is a very stressful activity but everybody's gotta do it. unless of course, God gave them the blessing of exemption.
now the thing is, there are these other people whom God chose to oversee and take care of these "exempted" people. i pity them but im jealous of them too. theyre strong you know. really strong. emotionally, physically strong. i wish i was just as strong but i dont want to.
sabi nga nila: "God doesn't give you what you want. He give you opportunities to get what you want." so when you ask God for courage, He doesn't give you courage. He gives you opportunites to be couragous.
one time i asked God for strength but instead i got insanity. kasi i didn't know He was giving me more LOAD and PROBLEMS pala. oh well. i know that God doesn't give us problems we cant handle but at that point in time, i obviously didnt make the most of that oppuortunity.
speaking of GOD. im doomed. i have to be honest. I haven't been hearing Sunday Mass for the past weekssssssssssssssss. yes, weeks. and my theo prof said that as believers and followers of a faith, we have to abide by the traditions and customs of that faith. because if we didn't comply with the "requirements" we might as well find another faith where we can comply with its requirements. with that said, hearing the Holy Euacharist is just one of the MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANY requirements of being a Catholic and i haven't been complying with it. so now, i dont know what will become of me. but i wont ask you guys to pray for my soul. other people need it more than i do. like the SUMILAO farmers and the people of Africa or something.
like i said, unfortunately i have the ability to think and to choose. ill come to my senses one of this days and come back crawling to God. i have to.
then there's accounting and law and yoga.
accounting- its okay. i find it fun. however, i have this something/someone thats hindering me from absolutely loving and excelling in the subject. not the prof. our prof this sem is really really good. but i have to kill someone first before i can maximize my full potential in this subject. haha. i have to kill my other self. i have LONG TEST this thursday. i need a month to prepare for it and i havent even started yet and there's only 3 more days before judgement day.
law- another subject with a GREAT prof. he's really good and i want to have a career like his'. but apparently in law, you cant cram. but there's alot going on in my life that cramming is NOT not an option. i have to CRAM. but then i have no choice but not to. or else ill just be feeding wrong insights to my other self and i have to kill her again.
yoga- my pe for this sem. my God! its really really hard. but its refreshing! only i have to wake up at 6:30am every morning! i dont like it. im not used to it anymore.
haaaaaaaaaaaay.
i dont know where im going.
over the weekend, i had a thousand insights rushing through the neurons of my brain, by which only 10 percent of it is useful.talk about information overload.
i think and i dont like it. thinking is a very stressful activity but everybody's gotta do it. unless of course, God gave them the blessing of exemption.
now the thing is, there are these other people whom God chose to oversee and take care of these "exempted" people. i pity them but im jealous of them too. theyre strong you know. really strong. emotionally, physically strong. i wish i was just as strong but i dont want to.
sabi nga nila: "God doesn't give you what you want. He give you opportunities to get what you want." so when you ask God for courage, He doesn't give you courage. He gives you opportunites to be couragous.
one time i asked God for strength but instead i got insanity. kasi i didn't know He was giving me more LOAD and PROBLEMS pala. oh well. i know that God doesn't give us problems we cant handle but at that point in time, i obviously didnt make the most of that oppuortunity.
speaking of GOD. im doomed. i have to be honest. I haven't been hearing Sunday Mass for the past weekssssssssssssssss. yes, weeks. and my theo prof said that as believers and followers of a faith, we have to abide by the traditions and customs of that faith. because if we didn't comply with the "requirements" we might as well find another faith where we can comply with its requirements. with that said, hearing the Holy Euacharist is just one of the MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANY requirements of being a Catholic and i haven't been complying with it. so now, i dont know what will become of me. but i wont ask you guys to pray for my soul. other people need it more than i do. like the SUMILAO farmers and the people of Africa or something.
like i said, unfortunately i have the ability to think and to choose. ill come to my senses one of this days and come back crawling to God. i have to.
then there's accounting and law and yoga.
accounting- its okay. i find it fun. however, i have this something/someone thats hindering me from absolutely loving and excelling in the subject. not the prof. our prof this sem is really really good. but i have to kill someone first before i can maximize my full potential in this subject. haha. i have to kill my other self. i have LONG TEST this thursday. i need a month to prepare for it and i havent even started yet and there's only 3 more days before judgement day.
law- another subject with a GREAT prof. he's really good and i want to have a career like his'. but apparently in law, you cant cram. but there's alot going on in my life that cramming is NOT not an option. i have to CRAM. but then i have no choice but not to. or else ill just be feeding wrong insights to my other self and i have to kill her again.
yoga- my pe for this sem. my God! its really really hard. but its refreshing! only i have to wake up at 6:30am every morning! i dont like it. im not used to it anymore.
haaaaaaaaaaaay.
i dont know where im going.
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