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because of my friend, i decided to change my template..
although i do it every other day..
anyway, her site's so emo.. yes, meily, im talking bout you..
it was the anime emo template and i must say i was moved.
ive been watching alot of anime lately and i actually find myself enjoying it!
i have alot of anime dvds at the dorm care off my tweener cousins who happen to adore anything anime or anything japanese.
so, since i cant actually use the theme my friend is using, i found this present template of mine.. its emo but its funny and on top of that, its pink! which is alot like how i feel lately..
anyway, moving on..
i have never really fully grasped the intensity of my inate stupidity until this afternoon.
i attended my histo class and i didnt really know anybody there. i didnt have a blockmate as my histo classmate but i did meet an english blockmate and an itm classmate of mine there. anyway, i also saw someone there. and that someone was not someone i would like to see there. due to complicated reasons (which, are not really that complicated but since it is my nature to complicate things, are complicated) it would have been best for my own selfish interests (yes, i am very selfish) if that person wasn't there. actually, what's at stake here is my dignity and my notion of selfworth. but since that person was there and i couldn't really do anything about it, i had no choice.
so here comes the stupid part.
that person didnt really know i existed in that same room with him but i didnt really know what got to me coz, i volunteered to be one of the class beadles of that freaking class! so much so for being invisible! xiet! damn i was stupid!
so as one of the class beadles, i was supposed to be acknowledged by everyone seeing that i would be the link between our teacher and the rest of the class.so that would mean that that person had to notice me. a thing which is actually very far from what i was hoping for. damn im stupid!
but what actually made me want to be the beadle was because earlier during my fil14 class, i so regretted the fact that i didnt volunteer to be the beadle. i really wanted to but i was shy. haha! anyway, so somebody got ahead of me and then our teacher said that it was customary for him to raise the beadles' final grades up a notch because he was letting them do all the dirty work for him. damn! i was so stupid to let that opportunity go!
so, if my day were to be described in one word, it would have to be---STUPIDITY.. xiet!
btw, y are college books so damn expensive???
although i do it every other day..
anyway, her site's so emo.. yes, meily, im talking bout you..
it was the anime emo template and i must say i was moved.
ive been watching alot of anime lately and i actually find myself enjoying it!
i have alot of anime dvds at the dorm care off my tweener cousins who happen to adore anything anime or anything japanese.
so, since i cant actually use the theme my friend is using, i found this present template of mine.. its emo but its funny and on top of that, its pink! which is alot like how i feel lately..
anyway, moving on..
i have never really fully grasped the intensity of my inate stupidity until this afternoon.
i attended my histo class and i didnt really know anybody there. i didnt have a blockmate as my histo classmate but i did meet an english blockmate and an itm classmate of mine there. anyway, i also saw someone there. and that someone was not someone i would like to see there. due to complicated reasons (which, are not really that complicated but since it is my nature to complicate things, are complicated) it would have been best for my own selfish interests (yes, i am very selfish) if that person wasn't there. actually, what's at stake here is my dignity and my notion of selfworth. but since that person was there and i couldn't really do anything about it, i had no choice.
so here comes the stupid part.
that person didnt really know i existed in that same room with him but i didnt really know what got to me coz, i volunteered to be one of the class beadles of that freaking class! so much so for being invisible! xiet! damn i was stupid!
so as one of the class beadles, i was supposed to be acknowledged by everyone seeing that i would be the link between our teacher and the rest of the class.so that would mean that that person had to notice me. a thing which is actually very far from what i was hoping for. damn im stupid!
but what actually made me want to be the beadle was because earlier during my fil14 class, i so regretted the fact that i didnt volunteer to be the beadle. i really wanted to but i was shy. haha! anyway, so somebody got ahead of me and then our teacher said that it was customary for him to raise the beadles' final grades up a notch because he was letting them do all the dirty work for him. damn! i was so stupid to let that opportunity go!
so, if my day were to be described in one word, it would have to be---STUPIDITY.. xiet!
btw, y are college books so damn expensive???
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